It made me feel low. It's not an easy job raising the Dude and I feel like a good portion of his crazy is my fault, seeing as I'm the one he spends the most time with. Maybe if he spent time with someone else, someone calm and collected, that might have rubbed off on him.
And then I saw this quote:
Seriously. My mad crush on Elder Uchtorf is completely justified. Isn't that exactly what I was doing and needed to hear?? Thank you Pinterest and The Silver Fox. That's my nickname for Elder Uchdorf. Don't judge, you know he is.
Then this morning I was reading a conference talk by Elder D. Todd Christofferson - Reflections on a Consecrated Life and it was so good I had to read it two more times. Then I had to switch it to audio so I could hear it again. It's one of those awesome view-from-above talks that helps to see the bigger picture. LOVED it.
Then when that talk was done and my hands were full, the app I was using went immediately on to the next talk - Of Things That Matter Most by Elder Uchdorf. I smiled, because 1. I remembered the joke from the beginning of the talk and still love it, and 2. Hellooooo, it's Uchtdorf. I swear that man looks right into my SOUL when he speaks. He knows women.
But oh. my golly. This was no ordinary random talk. This was EXACTLY what I needed. That's not hyperbole. EXACTLY. Uchdorf is psychic - and he delivered this message in 2010. Do you know what that means? HE CAN ALSO TIME TRAVEL. Dagnabit he's awesome. I'd tell you to read the whole talk - and MAN - you should, but if you need a few nuggets, here are some of the best psychic quotes:
- Have you ever been in an airplane and experienced turbulence? The most common cause of turbulence is a sudden change in air movement causing the aircraft to pitch, yaw, and roll. While planes are built to withstand far greater turbulence than anything you would encounter on a regular flight, it still may be disconcerting to passengers. What do you suppose pilots do when they encounter turbulence? A student pilot may think that increasing speed is a good strategy because it will get them through the turbulence faster. But that may be the wrong thing to do. Professional pilots understand that there is an optimum turbulence penetration speed that will minimize the negative effects of turbulence. And most of the time that would mean to reduce your speed. The same principle applies also to speed bumps on a road. Therefore, it is good advice to slow down a little, steady the course, and focus on the essentials when experiencing adverse conditions.
- When stress levels rise, when distress appears, when tragedy strikes, too often we attempt to keep up the same frantic pace or even accelerate, thinking somehow that the more rushed our pace, the better off we will be.
- My dear brothers and sisters, we would do well to slow down a little, proceed at the optimum speed for our circumstances, focus on the significant, lift up our eyes, and truly see the things that matter most.
- The fourth key relationship is with ourselves. It may seem odd to think of having a relationship with ourselves, but we do. Some people can’t get along with themselves. They criticize and belittle themselves all day long until they begin to hate themselves. May I suggest that you reduce the rush and take a little extra time to get to know yourself better. Walk in nature, watch a sunrise, enjoy God’s creations, ponder the truths of the restored gospel, and find out what they mean for you personally. Learn to see yourself as Heavenly Father sees you—as His precious daughter or son with divine potential.
- Strength comes not from frantic activity but from being settled on a firm foundation of truth and light. It comes from placing our attention and efforts on the basics of the restored gospel of Jesus Christ. It comes from paying attention to the divine things that matter most.
I keep beating myself up because I've had to go into survival mode - for Easter dinner, we nuked some corn dogs. I'm not the kind of person that can go all out and do anything all fabulously anyway, but it's just down to keeping my family alive, keeping me from getting so depressed that it adversely effects them, and staying sharp enough to feed Thing 3 at 4am. Dang it, I HATE that. I have another friend who is currently IN one of my all-time favorite bands, touring and recording and living out my entire rockstar fantasy - and I'm sitting in one place, trying to jam a pacifier into Thing 3's noise hole. He doesn't appreciate my efforts, by the way. But like Elder Uchtorf reminded me, this time is a speed bump, and going at it full speed will do bad things to the muffler. (I know whereof I speak on that one. Sorry, Dad).
I'm still a wreck and am counting the hours until Jane gets here (she's coming to visit me TOMORROW!!!!), but I can get through today, thanks to The Silver Fox. He's like a super hero... dude, someone with graphics skillz needs to make that image STAT!!
PS - By the way, General Conference is THIS WEEKEND! ! I am SO pumped, so ready for a refilling of my spiritual well. You can see it here live Saturday and Sunday at 10 and 2 MST, or whenever you want after that. I'll see you there :)