Tuesday, May 1, 2012

365 days 107-110


"Mommy, we're going to be a band today. The Tambourines. Okay? Oh, and P.S. - don't forget to dress like a rock star today. You don't want to look like a... you know... regular person."
This was the first time I've ever even worn these pants. I got them at Charlotte Russe last year while browsing through the clearance racks and saw they were 95% off $100.  $5 jeans??  I grabbed this and my orange pair and they are the best fitting jeans I own.  I didn't notice until I got home that the black ones were distressed and haven't really had anywhere to wear them.  Especially because I'm 32.  This invitation finally sounded like the proper occasion.


Tried a ghost shot with the shutter at 6 seconds.  OOooooooOOOOOoooOOOOO!


Lunch of champions.


There is nothing that cannot be cured (for the Dude) with tickling.

I've been super anxious lately.  My parents are within 2 days of leaving for Europe for a month, and then in a few months they are off to China for almost a year.  I don't talk to anyone regularly except my mom.  I am so scattered and there are 2 screaming munchkins in the house so civil conversations with friends are usually a relic of my 20s.  But my mom understands.  She understands when I need to hide in the bathroom because I can't hold things together anymore and she whispers just what I need to hear through the phone while the kids pound on the door screaming.  I am seriously panicking about the next month... I'm not quite sure how I'll manage.

And then I'm anxious because I have to figure out how and where to get WonderGirl to school next year where she'll be even remotely challenged.  Her teacher told me about a girl she saw on the news yesterday who was graduating college at 16 and she predicted that was WG's future.  Which made me panic even more.  I don't see that in her future, but does that mean I'm not seeing things right?  Am I doing enough for her?  Would teachers be scratching their heads at her if we lived in a different place with higher test scores at the schools?  Is she a big fish only because we live in a little pond, and if so, where's a bigger pond??  

My parents raised us on a shoestring budget but splurged on experiences and education for us.  All the kids had piano lessons, violin or clarinet lessons and whatever other instruments we were trying.   I got ballet, painting, math tutors, baseball teams, swim lessons, science camps, ski lessons, I was enrolled in special extracurricular orchestras plus summer music camps all over the country.  And that's just what's on the top of my head right now.   I haven't done a teeeny bit of what was done for me.  I AM RUINING HER LIFE AND SQUANDERING HER POTENTIAL TO BE PRESIDENT OF THE UNIVERSE.

Alright folks, if I can't call my mom and freak out, you're getting the brunt of it.  You've been warned.


Heidi said...

Oh dear. I see we are going to need to talk. Soon.

Mara said...

What I suggest to answer your question "Is she a big fish only because we live in a little pond" is simple: Have her take an IQ test! IQ tests are the best way to know where you child stands. Just to know that a child is gifted is not enough because there are differences among levels of giftedness. Then with the result you will know exactly what to look for and meet her needs. We did that with Teaq and it was the best thing. We found out that he has a extremely high IQ and with that in hands we now have a better idea on how to help him. Not to mention that doors will open when you have a respected report like that to show off. Teaq was accepted easily at a STEM the school we wanted him to go for next year.

Jane said...

We are separated by a few time zones but you can always call me and I will use all the combinations of words I know until I get it right to make you feel better.

M Pepper Langlinais said...

I'm freaking out about enrolling Alexander at the local public school for the same reasons. He's brilliant--which means he'll probably be bored and/or a trouble maker . . . What then? His hoity-toit private Kindergarten teachers never knew what to do with him, how will public school teachers handle him? Ack! Even though the school is supposed to be great, I'm going nuts . . .

Anonymous said...

“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.”
― Dr. Seuss

Anonymous said...

how is it that every mom is the absolute most perfect fit a daughter needs for every event and any moment in life. uncanny.

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