The physical right now is… well, I won’t tell you how it is. It’s pretty much the sickest, nastiest stuff I’ve ever had to go through. SH’s Really Important Business Meetings are now over so I am now free to go into labor at any time. I am Very Tempted to do that NOW, just to end this misery.
But the mental…. I’m so scared. I’m scared of how to be a mom to WonderToddler with a baby. The last few days it has taken me almost 2 hours to get her down for naps, but I HAVE to because if she doesn’t get a nap, she ends up spending her evening running around the house crying and screaming uncontrollably, and then I’LL run around the house crying and screaming uncontrollably. How will I manage to get her down with a baby??
Okay, not typing anymore because as I’m trying to come up with things to say about how terrified I am to be a mom to two, I cry harder and harder.
Oh, my doctor just called and wants me to come to the hospital now so they can hook me up to an IV. Dang, I HATE IV’s. I’ll update … soon …
edit: just got back from the doctor and got some medicine that might help… And I talked her out of the IV and into me promising to drink my weight in Gatorade. My will to live is diminishing…
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