I’m a thinking-thoughtful person. I think lots of things. I’m usually thinking. But one thing I really wish I could change about myself would be that I’d rather be a ACTING-thoughtful person. When I try to go ahead and do something thoughtful, it’s almost always a trainwreck. If you are my friend, you are very likely the recipient of a gift that you had to smile-and-nod at. I am terrible at picking out gifts, or doing something for someone that didn’t just get in the way. Every time I give someone something, or do some act of kindness I concocted in my brain, a warning sound goes off in my head yelling “YOU KNOW THEY’D BE BETTER OFF WITH THE CASH YOU SPENT ON THIS.” I miss birthdays and Christmas all the time just fretting about what I could give or do but can’t seem to get any ideas.
But man, I have the most thoughtful friends and family in the entire universe. The kind of people who will jump in a car or plane to visit if I need it, who give the most amazing gifts, and can make the most amazing plans or things … they are insanely awesome. I am so richly blessed in loved ones that it’s ridiculous. I never feel like I can adequately pay-it-forward. I overthink, I miss the point, I buy a swimming pool for someone who needs a drink of water. Bah.
So all this being said, I really want to feel less helpless when I see a friend in need. What was the most helpful thing someone did for you when you needed a hand?
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