what YOU doin'?
The Dude has not taken to big-brotherhood gracefully, but I do not give up easily. So when I caught them playing on Sunday - together - I freaked out. Little victories. I take 'em.
On kind of the same topic (not really, but kind of in my head it works) - have you ever been really disliked? As a grown up, I mean - not as a kid (that's too easy). And you ran in the same circles? I have. I actually don't blame them - if anything I'm always amazed at the caliber of people who are willing to love me. There are more than enough reasons not to and they are willing to look past my obvious flaws - amazed every time.
It hurts, right? You make yourself scarce around them and try to be as invisible as possible, and it puts a knot in your stomach every time. I'm not perfect at it, but I manage okay when I find myself in that place. Now here's the question - what if there is someone YOU can't abide? And you know how crummy it feels to be excluded and frozen out - and can't stand the idea of doing that to someone else? Just curious - how do you manage your feelings in a situation like that? I don't want to make anyone have a knot in their stomach because of me. Fake it till you make it seems to work. But what if you are having trouble doing that? I remind myself that people are children of our Father in Heaven and he loves each of us - and it's my job to do the same. That works most of the time but there are some people who blindside me and I get worn down. Anywho, what do YOU do?
Also - I'm not talking about YOU. I love you!!